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Honestly, they are dumb, as fucking rocks, if they keep me.

I do not want this next HOH. I don't need to show my new cards right now. I hope we can see how everyone is doing. I will throw if Tree and Tatum are in the lead, but I'm not feeling hot with a Sheila, Clear, whatever HOH. It's very tricky right now to decide what is best.

Yeah Sheila is John with that annoying questionnaire.

I'm very tempted not answering.

If Emilie and I break up, I want to marry whoever is playing Tree. Every day that bitch makes me love her more. Her reaction to me wanting Mindy out? I love her, like, did I say that I love Tree yet? I feel like everyone loves Tree but that's fine, I will pretend I'm her only ally.

This is the part that gets tiring playing with players like Tatum. GIRL, your name being mentioned doesn't mean you have to pack up the family in the mini van and move across the country. What the hell is Carrie going to do? If anything, she'll go after Sheila if she ever comes into any kind of power. I'm so annoyed right now. Tatum knows Mindy is too close to Tree for comfort and now you have Samara almost throwing herself in the pits of hell to save Mindy, naw fuck that.

These games are not fun sometimes. I feel bad for Mindy now. fml

Maybe she's not another Justine, but it's so scary.

There’s something adaptable about me and I have to assume that’s why I mend bridges this fast. I literally made a big move, had half of it flop in my face, see the 2 nominees who survived win back to back HOHs and somehow I’m still here and 2 players I needed out but was not willing to do myself are gone. Eventually the fun will end, but I’m impressed right now.

I see the appeal now in hosts liking DRs. I’m always like yasss Gale read my post

Not a double . This is why I’m suss that Tree is someone new to all this. She’s way too good, natural and observant. Who are you? It’s driving me crazy. Who reads cheesy novels, knits and listens to that type of music? She could be lying too, like me with Duchess Minka Kelly, my cat .

Clear is walking on egg shells with me, doesn't want to tell me shit, so I fear like I'm in danger. I asked if I needed to pitch her for safety and she didn't even acknowledge it and never once told me I was good.

Now why does Samara tell me she's not going up anymore after I make a deal with Clear that I'd vote her out? Is this a set up? Hmmmm

Luba being the target, it's like why are people taking care of my bootlist for me? Thank you so much. Do Clear next please.


Luba being nominated this round is like

I need this veto ceremony all of it to be over so I can enjoy my night lmao. I won't feel good until the noms are solidified, I do not trust this mess, I don't trust this group.

I would LOVE to run to Tatum right now and let her know that Nancy has her name in her mouth, but a girl is just so paranoid that I don't know she wouldn't fuck me over with the information. Tree <3

I'm just the standing emoji now. Tatum's ass made me rush, get all ready to talk and she vanishes. Also that group of Nancy/Clear/Sheila, I see you, I'm starting to see you quite clearly.

Reasons why I need Tree for my sanity in this game.

- She keeps me calm when I get paranoid. Her dry ass muffin "Hello Penelope" every day just makes me laugh and can make me feel safer for some odd reason
- Her and I usually agree. Can't wait to read up to see if she truly did share my brain so much in how we always align in our way of thinking
- She's very give and take. It's not all about her, it's not all about me, I find a good working relationship with her
- She's never too paranoid. I don't have to worry about her going all off the deep end when I give her information the way I have to worry with Tatum and Nancy
- She's been smart enough to not make any messes I have to clean up or get dragged into
- She puts in the work to get me to stay when I'm at risk
- She understands we don't always have to do the same thing, as long as we both look out for each other
- I'd be going crazy sitting on all this information and knowledge if I had no one to share it with


And I finally figured out tonight why I am so drawn to her. She reminds me a lot of someone I used to be really close to. I miss Lemon more than I can ever admit and I think this proves it

This turn of events at least makes me see that Nancy is NOT part of this Clear/Sheila/Thomasin shit. I don't know what to do. I think it's better for me to keep Samara honestly, but I don't want to have Tatum upset. I just feel like Clear is using what Nancy did to put paranoia on Tatum, but this vote will not make of break Tatum, it will just make Clear/Sheila stronger and we CAN'T have that.

This is so messy. I feel like the better thing for me to do is to vote Luba out.

Trust in Luba - 10%
Trust in Samara - 65%

Luba in comps - Meh
Samara in comps - Slightly better

Fuck Nancy over - She will probably just join Clear and Sheila
Fuck Clear over - She doesn't have a lot of avenues since Carrie, Tree, Samara and even Nancy are more with me as far as I know, Tatum too.

Nancy/Samara - Not that threatening
Sheila/Clear - Very threatening

As I make this list, the only con into keeping Samara is that side wanting to go after Tatum. If I can get homegirl to chill the hell out, maybe I can work on making Nancy shift her Tatum focus onto Clear and Sheila, but I can't control Tatum.